Developing the Drawing Process

I started this drawing project with very small pictures (10 x 10 cm) and I’ve been increasing the paper size gradually – first to A4 and then to A3.  And now I want A2!

The problem is that the way I draw – making a clean white paper 90 -percent black – takes an insane amount of time. I don’t mind the slow progress, I enjoy doing it the hard way. It’s my meditation and therapy to spend hours drawing in silence. However, drawing like I draw now on A2 -paper would be just plain ridiculous. I am not THAT autistic. It’s nice to have more than one finished piece in one year.

First I tried to think of a way to draw with white felt pen on a black surface to reduce working hours but I haven’t found proper tools for that. Most white pens I’ve tried are either messy or too thick to make the level of detail I want. I guess it’s because making a solid white line on black requires way too thick paint to mask the black entirely. If anyone has tips for working white pens, I’d be happy to hear about them.

It would also be very difficult to work with a big paper as I’d need more working space and a bigger table. It would be inconvenient to not be able to rotate the paper as freely as I’ve gotten used to. And I would probably be tied to one physical location versus drawing wherever I want. I started this project with a clear intention to keep the drawing process low cost, portable, flexible and simple and I’m not ready to abandon those principles just yet.

So now I’m trying to do it the other way. I’m first drawing smaller pictures and then cutting them out. After I have enough cut-out material, I’ll glue them on a A2 -sized black paper. At least that’s the plan.. I have no idea how it’s going to work out. It could turn out to be just as laborious way to work since the cutting of images also takes a lot of time too.

I recently bought a nice knife to start slicing peop.. I mean shit so we’ll see how it goes.

Cutting in process
Cutting in process

Hi, my name is Johannes Kamikaze and I am a Nyctophilic




I confess, I like sunlight and summer (there’s seems to be at least a fragment of normality in me). But when it comes to making art or anything truly creative, I need the night. Or more  closely the darkness of the night. In fact, right now I’m sitting in front of my pc writing this in a dark room. The sun is shining outside but I have the curtains closed to simulate nighttime.

I used to think I must be somehow insane to be drawn toward the night, but there seems to be science behind it.

Why Creativity Thrives In the Dark

Dim Lighting Sparks Creativity

I love the feeling of the darkness of the night. It feels like the whole world is sleeping. No stress, no ordinary stuff to do, no meaningless business to take care of. The time stands still and my brain starts to fire up. The darkness of the night summons the world of dreams, deep thoughts, eternity and the numinous feeling of life. All ordinary happens in the light of day and all magic and insanity in the dark of the night. Everything that’s being blocked by the five senses, becomes visible for the mind’s eye when the light disappears.

The darkness is about instinct, mystery, taboo, rebellion, suppressed thoughts and all other things equally threatening to the consensus and agreeability of the day. So what’s not to love about darkness?

The real game of life is always played in the obscurity of the unconscious.